Breaking out of the box

Even though you're supposedly the one who knows yourself best, better than anyone else does, every now and then you, or atleast I, need another person to tell you what's best for you. Not like ordering you or anything, but just giving you that little extra push to help you think outside of the box. I just had coffees with a friend this morning, and I tell you, this girl has a gift. She doesn't even know it, and it's really subtle, but she's just plain inspiring. My biggest issue these past months has been, as always, "what to do with my little life, what will become of me?" Before I seemed so sure of myself, the path was dead straight and certain, nothing could make me change direction. It'd be one year in France, finish my Bachelor, translation programme in Gothenburg, and finish by the age of 27 when I would be ready to become a fully-fledged and responsible grown-up. But first set-back was of course me failing miserably at the entrance exam in April last year which "forced" me to stay another year in France. First I thought "oh well I'll just give it another go next year". But lately my choice of life, or rather choice of future, has been giving me heaps of doubts. Is this really what I want to do? Choosing an education that will restrain me forever, that will keep me in Sweden with extremely limited options? I have trouble seeing myself like that.
Lauren, my inspiring friend, just gave me some pointers. I've always had trouble evaluating myself, always thinking I'm a little less capable than I (perhaps) really am. But first of all, what's the point in writing myself off before I've even given it a go? Granted, I did try out for the translation thing and didn't make it, but that's fate saying it wasn't for me. So from now on I'll start exploring my options and keep telling myself that I am able, I am qualified and I have the will to do it! Yes I can! (Sorry, just had to...)
As soon as I get a minute over I'll sit down with my pen and paper and start looking up alternatives. Paris, France, Europe, the world... There's no end to the possibilities!
Feeling so wonderfully uplifted and hopeful! Have to hold on to this feeling, mustn't despair. Set-backs happen, they're a part of life and they allow people to grow. They're there to guide and educate, not to ruin and destroy. What would life be without a little drama? A real bore.

With good hope, until next time (surely not too long from now)!

xxxx C